First time..

A mid-summer dusty road in middle of a busy Monday afternoon.. I was going somewhere..I suppose..in a sense of oblivion I am standing by the side of the road as cars pass by each busy in their own bound..honking, overtaking each other and blowing up more smoke and dust each time..and as I was about to cross the road a truck blared its angry horn. I stopped and I saw you.. that innocent helpless face.. fresh as the drops of rain in leaves after the first monsoon shower.. You standing in the other side of the road..you were still terrified to cross the road just as you are now..it’s an automobile mayhem you told me once..and with a frown, tightened lips and it’s-now-or-never determination you make your final attempt just to get in front of an auto which screeches to a halt..as the auto driver keeps screaming on top of his voice, you keep standing there..clenched wrist, head down, eyes shut tightly..one could say your whole life flashed in front of your eyes..which I later found it actually did!! On an impulse it occurred to me that I should crossover, grab your hand and bring you to this side of the road..but I stopped myself. Instead went to your side and stood meters away watching you. The auto driver seeing it’s of no use screaming, passes you and hits the road. You came and stood beside me still in a state of shock. And as you spoke your voice quivered a little, you try to hide it, but still..and you ask me am I too waiting to cross the road? I could have hugged you then and covered your face with kisses..that sweet little face and such fragile you..if only I had wings I would have hugged you and wrapped both of us in the warm embrace of my wings..I wanted to protect you.. to care for you..to make you smile..or to cry with you..I wanted to smell your hairs..kiss the warm skin of your neck..wanted to watch you sleep, curled in your bed..wanted to hold you and listen to everything you say..and drop a tear every time you left..wanted to live my life with you..holding you near..taking care of you..and I kept staring as the world passed by. Nothing made much sense anymore, just that you are standing in front of me and everything else is a blur..till you spoke again and this time your voice didn’t quiver..”Excuse me, are you ok?” No, I was not.. two things I knew at that point..I was not ok...and you were something else. I snapped out and said yes, lets cross the road now before more cars come along. You smiled and damn you shouldn’t have done that and more what you did 3 seconds later..but that smile I will never forget, nor that I ever want to..but getting lost in my dreams in the middle of a busy road with you by my side was the last thing I wanted to do..but just as I guided you through the middle of the road you hold my hand and all of a sudden I was the one who needed to rescued from the automobile mayhem!! I stopped mid road but you pulled my hand looked back at me, smiled and said..come. I could have died then and there or could have lived that moment forever. And that was the first time I saw you..